7/14/2011 cont'd

Dear God,

please remove my greed, stinginess, and fear....my judgementalism.

God, please look out for Ted, he is most wonderful landlord, please look out for Richard, I hope I can relieve some of his suffering by talking nicely about him.

God, please help me with my finances, I know you are already, I have never gone without, please remove my FEAR...please let me live in love only....

I love you  xoxox

Jill

July 14, 2011

Thank you, God for another day or breathig the fresh air and looking at the sunshine.  Thank you for giving me the energy to walk Hoss this am, the grounds at Colgate are just amazingly beautiful!  Thank you for the beauty everywhre!  Thank you for letting be of service.

Please help Brayden have the best care possible to ease his suffering, please help alleviate his moms fears...comfort them.
please hold Jessica today as she sets up a baloon release for her little one she just lost from cancer.

please help Jo find a host family.

Please give Eileen the strength she needs to get through this trip.

please help Annette on her trip.

Please watch over  heita, Marcia, Susan T, Chris E, oe, Marnie, Simon, Gordon, Mary, Doug, the girls, Tanya, Christian, Claire and Hartley...everyone...please.

Please help Marcia with her depression.  Please send aid to JoAnn.

please help the pregant daycare mom

Please help Portia, Frank, Cienna, Deborah, Shnon, Alex and Skylar

please help Lue with her Mom

please help Melisa

Please bring aid to relieve everyone's suffering

I love you, God

Jill

July 13, 2011

Thank you, God, for helping me to be of service to my little ones and for the help of Simons speech therapist (Thank you, Andrea!!)

Thank you for giving me patience to work with Hoss today, I know in my heart that it is exercise that he needs, I MUST get over this fatigue and walk him regularly, please help me, God, PLEASE!!

Please help Deborah, Shannon, Alex and Skylar, bring them all peace....

Please help Marcia with her depression.

Please help Jo from Germany find a suitable host family.

Please help Lue and her Mom.

Please help me and my Mom

Please help Melisa

Please comfort Portia, Frank and Cienna

Please bring comfort to Joe

Please care for Jessica (Kayleighs mom)

Please bring peace to Braydens home.

Please help Chris Stevens have peedy recovery from the heart attack/surgery

Please bring peace to JoAnns heart

Pease help Eileen, Dorsey, Tom, Barb, Mary, Melinda, Susan, Margaret, Georgia, Chris E, Sue, Ebony, Cordelia, Mary, Lisa, Kheita, Marcia, Gary, Mom, anyone who is suffering.....

Please give me the strength I need to care for my dog.

Thank you, God

Jill

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Dear God,

Thank yo helping me see how I could be of service to Jo from Germany, love you.

Thank you for letting Kayle pass in peace with lots of love and prayers all around her.

than you for "Postcards for Brayden"

Thank you for allowing me to inspire my daughter and others.

Thank you for the Dharma Center, The Dalai Lama, and all my Teachers.

Please help me to stay mindful, present and to stay in touch with how I am feeling, and to work with the feelings and not against them.

Please continue to offer love and support to Brayden and any other person who is suffering (Eileen, Ethan, Jo, JoAnn, Richard K, Ann D, Shirley and David, Kayleigh's Mom Jessica, Rene, Dorsey, Jana, Jeannine R, Vine Jr, Andrew, Greg, Tom J, Marcia Z, Marilee, Jen T, Nancy O and others I have forgotten....)

I love you, Dear God, please keep me close to you xoxoxo

Love always,

Jill

July 10, 2011

oh, i missed a day of my prayers, please forgive me!  My internet has been so slow, i'm thinking of calling Verizon and telling them to cancel me, there must be something better than this!

Thank you, God...for my computer and my internet, im sorry if I sounds greedy for wanting "better".

God, please continue to look out for Kayleigh, she is home now with 24 hour care....trying to keep her pain free.

Thank you for Nan for taking brayden away a bit to Lanier park, it was a bit overwhelming for him, but he did enjoy the pool. 58 people in "Postcards for Brayden!" yay!!!

Postcards for Brayden

its late. I love you.

Please bring help to all who are suffering, God  xoxox

Jill

Daily prayers and gratitude Day #9

Than you, God, for a vey t lat nt witriends  a the RPO anomy tiith Sampa t e publ mrt.  Thank yu for marys  gift card, I had  much fun shopping with it, even found somithnng for Brayden!  Than you for hingrr include  inn  hkeithe grls, I love at fmily. Than you to naancy for her  appreciation of me kinda feel ashamed when  Im appiated. Inow is not e, thatcrinfor te kkis I know you us  as an istrument,. Thank you for letting me be one of your angels to provide loving care to tthose who need me.  please let those who I can not help forgive me....

Brayden

Daily prayers/gratitudes day #8

Dear God,

Looks like Brayden couldn't get his chemo on time and will have to wait til next week, I know you know whats best.  I am thankful my package arrived in time to cheer him and his mom up when they came home, thank you for your help :)

Thank you, also for the postcards for Brayden group, we are up to 40 people sending in prayers and postcards..wish I could do more to bring a smile to a little boys face.

Please look over these people/animals as well as anyone suffering, please bring them happiness and well-being: Jo, Jana, Vince Jr. Jeanine, Andrew, Greg, Marcia Z, Marcia, Tom J, Rob and Lisa, Hoss, Tina (thank you for sorting out her trouble this week!!), JoAnn, Jen T, and me (please help me have tolerance with Hoss and his separation anxiety....please help me to not get so upset with him when he whines and cries for me when i need to put him in my room, away from the kids sometimes or leave him alone), Richard K, Mom, Susan, Ray, Dona, Tommy, Carlie, Nan, Maranda, Kayleigh, Kayleighs family, Gordon, Marnie, Simon, Amalie, Nancy, Nancy O, Mary, Doug, Sadie, Keira, Christian, Tanya, Claire, Hartley, Andy, Maya, Jen, Sue, Katie, Ellie, Pattie, David, Lillian, Amy, Makayla, Shannon, Alex, Skylar, Deborah and family....

Thank you for allowing me to be good at what I do, to have patience and be mindful around my little ones, I see that you help me every day, I am grateful for the feedback from the parents.  Thank you for my good friends.

Thank you for presenting me an opportunity to be with my fellowship tonight, to have dinner together and go to the RPO together tonight.

Thank you for good foods to eat and a fridge filled with healthy foods. For my health and my current remission.

Oh, please bring support to Jean P and Dorsey H, I haven't heard back from them in quite sometime and I worry (even though I know worrying doesn't help anything!)

Please relieve me of my fear of finances, there is so much I want to do: go to San Diego to see Mama, Georgia to see Nan, Pensacola to see Susan, New Jersey to see Christine, Long Island to see Angie and family, Ft Lauderdale to see Richard, Ft Myers to see Mom and Dick, Idaho to see the Smiths, Wales to see Jo, I would love to volunteer at the Lighthouse family retreat.  Help me to keep things simple, God.  Please help me as you have, you have never let me be without and I am grateful for that, so grateful....

please help Jo, the foreign exchange student, find the right family :)....

I love you

Love, Jill

Daily Prayers/gratitudes day #7

Dear God,

please take good care of Brayden and his Mama today, he is due to have chemo but his mother is worried about his bloodwork.  You know whats best, I trust the best decision will be made for Brayden.  Bring peace to his family, please.

Please look after Marcia Z, and Jeannine R for they suffer from their losses.

Please protect Marcia and Tom from their loneliness.

Please help my sister Susan with her decisions.

Please take good care of my best friend Dorsey.

Thank you for my carreer, I love it and love how it brings prosperity into my home and I get to work with my neighbors and in my community, all have been dreams of mine.

Please help Simon forgive me for upsetting him by having him wear a helmet in the bike carrier..he was not a happy boy, sorry Simon!  Thank you to all the parents who trust me.

Please take special care of Tommy and Carlie.

Please help me in working with children on sharing, the speech therapist and I have differing opinions, I know mine is not always the right one, please help me to keep an open mind.

Please help me have a peaceful day today, I have a few extra drop-ins and the speech therapist coming. Not our usual routine.  Thank you for always sending your angels to help!!  xoxox

Please continue to look after JoAnn, she needs your love and support, lots of friends, lots of hugs, relief from fears, doubts and insecurity, I know you are right by her side, let her feel it please, God....

Please help anyone who is suffering today.

love you,

Jill

Daily Prayers and gratitudes day 6

Thank you so very much for your help getting Tom.J's truck on the road, and for helping M get her report in!!  How amazing you are!  She said she asked someone to help her format the paper, and the woman not only helped her, but spend 3.5 hours on the paper, almost perfecting it!  She said when she saw Jesus as this woman's background, she knew she was in the right place :)  Thank you so much.

Please bring comfort to Jeanine.R. who lost her husband suddenly over the weekend at the age of 52, 27 years of marriage.  Please bring people in to help her and help her feel safe and not alone.

Please also bring comfort to Marcia.Z who lost her  mother suddenly and is worried about her father, who has failing memory...he keeps asking where her mother is. Please bring the family strength, love and joy

Please bring strength and hope to my new friend Mary who I met at the playground.  She had such trouble with chemo, she decided to stop chemo altogether.  She told me a story of her grandson who was 19, who died of non-hodgkins lymphoma (the same as mine)...cancer is so close to her heart, bring her lots of love and joy, please.

Daily prayers day 5

Lord, please help Kayleigh, little one needs a breathing tube...must be so terribly scary for her and her family.

Please help "M" as she gets her report ready to hand in today, let her be at peace that she has done all that she can...bring her peace of mind, please.

Please help my fellows and myself with fears, doubts and insecurities.

Please let anyone who is traveling today,  get there safely.

Please take special care of Brayden and his Momma.

Please help me work out my plans for August I would very much like to visit Mom is Florida, Nan in Georgia and Susan, Mom, and Richard in Florida.  I would love for someone to be available to house/pet sit.  I would also love to be able to afford this trip.

Please continue to care for my friend J.B., she needs your strength.

Thank you so very much for helping T.J. get his truck back up and running, awesome!

Thank you for all my friends who are sending cards and packages to Brayden!  Your grace is just amazing :)

It is my will to keep taking care of myself....and to let go of my greedy nature, please help me, God.

Thank you for the nice time last night, it was great to take a new friend to the movies and have dinner together.

Thank you for my mothers reply, please tell me what direction to take with her now.  I promise to be patient and kind in the meantime.

Thank you for all the lovely things my Mother has done for me...the weekend in California, the weekend in SPAIN!  The trips to Italy, Yugoslavia, Australia, England, Disney, Idaho, etc....  what a greedy, selfish child I was, please forgive me, please help Mother to forgive me.

Please forgive me for for wanting my family to be different that it was...how selfish I was to believe I deserved better/more/different...

Please help my friend "M" and "T", they made mistakes this weekend and are beating themselves up, please bring the support that they need to their aid.

Please help me distance myself with compassion from those who cause the three poisons to increase: greed, hate and ignorance.

Please help me have compassion for all.

Thank you, also for having the German exchange student to contact me, I would love to be her host mother but I am so full of fear, doubt and insecurity....

Please help me decide if I should accept this gift from T.J.

Please protect R.K., I saw him pull up in a medicab today, I wonder if he is too sick to drive....please take care of him, Lord....please bring him friends and the hep that he needs. Please help me do whatever I can to relieve if suffering my at least not adding to it (dog barking, kids loud, etc...)

I love you, God

Jill

ps. please help me spend my time wisely.  Thank you  xoxoox

Daily prayers day 4

Dear God,

Please help A.M.D. while she goes through her divorce, help her with her loneliness...

Help us all with our loneliness and powerlessness, God, please..

Please help "N"'s friend, "M" when she goes for hip surgery next week.

Please help T.J. get his truck fixed, he misses it.

Please take special care of my son and my daughter, my mother, birth mother and birth father, my birth sisters and brother and my brother.  Keep them safe and protected.

Please take special care of J.I. she her back and strained some muscles, help her not to do so much so she can heal.

Please help "M" while she gets her report ready to hand in tomorrow, bring her peace of mind, help her to care for herself while she works on this.

Please help my friend C.M. as she waits for her after surgery results, please give her strength not to worry.

Please give special care to those who are praying for Brayden and sending him postcards.  Please continue to take special care of Brayden and his Mom as well...

Please help D.S. find a placement for Jo from Germany.  She needs a wonderful city home to be placed in for the school year. I want to do it but I am so full of fears (what if it doesn't work out, etc..)  Please bring me clarity, God.

Please don't give up on friend J.B., she is going through so much and can hardly see your blessings...don't give up on her, she needs you.

Please help kayleigh and her family.  I pray she isn't suffering, he is still on a ventilator, please give strength to her family.

Hoss is doing so much better, thank you!  The trainer tips are helping already!


Love, Jill

ps. please help Mom with any unspoken troubles...she doesn't like to complain...

Daily Prayers, Day 3

July 3rd, 2011

Good Morning, God

Thank you for yesterday, you sent to many angels to help my friend J.B. who was not invited to her daughters wedding. I always heard that rejection was Gods protection. I see that you protected her, from what I heard, she was probably not going to be safe at that wedding.  What she did receive was a day with three of her best friends, her grandson and even her other daughter giving her lots of love and joining in with the sadness of her not being invited.  It was truly a joy to see how you worked to protect my dear friend.  She even had a friend offer to come and spend the night, so she would be not be alone last night. Thank you, God.  May you please continue to look out for my friend as she still has this ugly court battle ahead of her, she still has a kitchen with no sink or stove she still suffers form the rejection of two of her children, and she just lost her very best friend from childhood yesterday from cancer.  She prays to you daily, and does not see your grace, only all the suffering all around her.  Please help her to see that you are with her..

Please look after little Kayleigh Watkins- she is having some issues, and her Mommy is very worried about her.She is a friend of little Brayden's, please continue to look after Brayden.

Please help my friend "M", she is trying so hard to abstain from doing something which is very hurtful to herself. Please give her strength to let this go in order to allow you to enter her life.  Please help her with her loneliness.

Please help my friend A.M.G. who is going through a divorce and struggling with loneliness. 


Please help my friend N.G. who does not know if she will have a job next year, she is such a giving and caring woman.

Please help my dog to be able to be away from me without barking when I leave him today.

Daily Prayers Day two

July 2, 2011

God, please be with my friend J.B. today, her daughter is getting married and she was not invited.  This must be so painful. Please help me to be part of the relief of her suffering today. God, please help me as I wish to take her to the wedding and let her take a peek at her daughter in her dress, my friend is so afraid to do this. Let us know if its a bad idea or not.

Please help my friend "L" as he learns to kayak today, he is a little nervous.

Please help my dog as I have to go out a few times today, he has horrible seperation anxiety. Help him to not cause any suffering to R.K. below me.  Help him not to suffer himself, please.

Speaking of R.K., please take care of him, he is suffering from colon cancer and has been having a lot of financial troubles lately, please relieve his suffering.  Please bring him help.  Please help me not to add to his suffering and to know what to do/say.

Please help me with my relationship with my Mother, God.  I don't always know what to do/say. I need your help.

Please come to the aid of D.T. who is suffering from skin cancer and just had several tumors removed from her face, I know this makes her feel terrible. Please relieve her of her suffering, please bring her people to take care of her, let her know she is not alone, God.


love you, God.

In gratitude,

Jill

Daily Prayers Day One

Note: I start my prayers with God. I'm not really sure about how this thing called God works....I don't wish to start any controversy, though. Please forgive me if I have offended anyone. 

also, I don't know if I should use real names here or just initials, I will use initials until I have clarity.

God, please help B.M., a little guy of four with brain cancer, to find peace and joy in life, amongst all the tests and probing, medications and scanning.  Please bring peace to his mother and father and family, I know they must be suffering as well.  Please bring angels to help them.

Please bring help to my friend N.O. She has a rare form of cancer and is seeking out a second opinion. Please help her make the right choice for herself. Please rally people around her to help relieve her suffering and that of her husband and family.

Please help my friend E.O.  She is a wonderful single mother. Her children are her life.  She works so hard and tries so hard, but it always seem like the world is falling apart around her.  She keeps her spirit up and cares so much about others. Please bring her the help she needs so that she can continue to care for her children.

God, please help my friend T.J. He is lonely. He needs your help.

Please help anyone who is suffering from illness and/or addiction. Please bring them the help they need.

God, please help others learn to ask for help.  Sometimes we just don't know what they need.  They keep their thoughts inside.  When they do this, we do not know they are suffering, its hard for us to help.

Please help my friends who have lost their children.  It seems children should outlive their parents, but this is not always the case.  Please bring them peace and comfort. Please bring people to their lives to help relieve their suffering.

God, please help me make decisions when someone asks for my help, sometimes saying YES causes suffering. I have realized that suffering does not relive suffering. Help me, please.

Thank you.

in gratitude,

Jill

Asking for help

We have all heard of the power of prayer, but how do we REALLY know its working?

We don't, we really don't know anything.

Nothing is permanent.  Everything changes. People get sick. people die. People everywhere are suffering.

What can we do?

Ask for help.

Asking for help is hard, we want to appear strong.

It actually takes great strength to surrender that you JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO sometimes....

Maybe no one does.  Maybe things are exactly the way they are supposed to be?

Children with cancer?  How can that be the way its supposed to be?

Stop fighting with the uncontrollable and surrender.

Instead of being angry, lets focus on where the suffering is REALLY occurring. THE CHILD WITH CANCER.

He/she lies in a bed suffering while we become "angry with the world, angry with God"

What good does that really do?

How about we ask for help?

"Angels (or a higher power of your choice), please help me relieve this child's suffering"  "Please help me relieve his parents suffering" "Please help me relieve my own suffering"

We are on this earth to help each other.

If no one suffered, we would never have a chance to help.

No one is promised a suffering free life.

NO ONE.

Once we can accept this, we can move on to the task of living.

Angels are everywhere, waiting to be asked to help. Up above or down here below. I hefaith in this, because it has worked for me.

I suffer from non-hodgkins lymphoma, its an incurable blood cancer.  People say they pray for me.  I say, "its working!"

I truly believe it is!

Why look! here I am, alive and well and typing this blog to you!

I recently posted a message on my Facebook page, asking for letters to be written to cheer up a little boy of four who is suffering with brain cancer....he is very sick, and very tired.

Yes, we can sit in our anger (That's not fair!) or we can DO SOMETHING!

We can ask for help.

I asked for help from my friends and we now have 33 people from all over the world wanting to help.(Hopefully this number will grow).

PEOPLE ARE ANGELS!

If you are reading this and one of them, THANK YOU!

(If you are reading this and want to help, please let me know).

I decided to start a prayer blog.  As there are people suffering everywhere.

I recently started writing my prayers instead of saying them to myself.  Ive now decided to make  prayers public Why keep them to myself?

Someone out there just might be able to help someone else.

I would like for you to add your prayers to this blog...I very much believe in the power of prayer.

The more of us praying, the better, I'm absolutely certain.

You don't have to be religious to pray, folks....

praying is merely "asking for help" (I could be wrong, but its my belief, take it or leave it).

Get out there and look for someone who is suffering and could use your prayers....come back here and post about it.

Relieve you own suffering of powerlessness...and anger.

Thank you for taking time to read this.

in gratitude,

Jill

I am more and more convinced that our happiness or unhappiness depends far more on the way we meet the events of life, than on the nature of those events themselves. ~ Alexander Von Humboldt